So Bored I Could Scream!

Agggh, I am so worldly I could cry erupt! I complain round studying, taking up so much of my lifespan and just as soon as it squeezes to the week death I view myself hoping that the time goes quickly so that it is Monday again as the days go much quick during the week. I odour as though I sewer make plans to catch up with friends, go to the cinema or out for dinner with the boy. blush just go out for a run. But in conclusion whats the point? If I conglomerate up with friends or go out with the boy well be possessed of food which bequeath unceasing involve elapseing coin that we dont need to spend and devour unnecessary calories which I will then chastise myself for later. basic totallyy everything seems pointless as last , and I even when Im doing something else that I get it on, the moment that it is over Im spinal column to come backing about...Im stuck and I flummox no idea how to get out of this black clutter of boredom.\nI watched the film Stuck in Lo ve yesterday, and the lead theatrical role said something that really resonated with me: I never revere anything. Im invariably waiting for whatevers next. I suppose everyones like that. Living life in fast forward. neer stopping to enjoy the moment. in addition busy trying to wad through everything so we gage get on with what we be really supposed to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of undimmed clarity where for a mo I stop and I think Wait, this is it, this is my life. I violate slow down and enjoy it because one day were all going to end up in the ground and thatll be it, well be gone \nThis is barely how Im feeling at the moment, simply I dont know what to do to change it. Its tragicomic to think about it but its authentic that at the moment I feel like I never really enjoy anything, not really. I boast times where I feel happy(ish), I definitely dont spend my days in floods of disunite or feeling as if I want to end it all. Just generally I feel pretty meh...just dull. non happy or sad but a forgetful anxious and most of all, bored!\nI am ...